March 27, 2022

It’s crazy how sometimes there is absolutely nothing going on, and the next moment there are twenty places that you need to be all at once. Life is definitely a rollercoaster haha. I’ve been doing a lot of stuff these past few weeks, and sure it’s been taxing, but also really fulfilling. I’ve been working on a new book lately, it’s something that I am so so excited for. It was originally going to be a sci-fi (or something like that) but it’s turning itself into another fantasy. I don’t really plan books out that well, they more so birth themselves haha.

I’ve been working on editing a book that I finished around two years ago; it’s good that I took some steps away from it because I’m now seeing so many changes that need to be made. It’s going to be fun though, I’m really excited to complete it and share it with the world. I do get nervous though, thinking of how many people will have access to this project that I’ve invested so much time and energy into. It’s like a shadow that clings to me whenever I publish a new book, I sometimes find myself wondering if people like my works. There are times when I have my doubts, but I’m getting way better at ignoring them. It’s just my own insecurities speaking, but man they can give you a torrent of trailing thoughts. Thankfully, I’m beyond them to a certain extent. I’m starting to read through my previous books now; I was really scared to read them at first because I didn’t want to find any mistakes. To me, it was better to pretend that they didn’t exist than to acknowledge them. I’m a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to my works, but perfection isn’t always what I have when I press that publish button. But now I’m looking at it as a way of tracking my progress, since from The Story of Helel to The Book of Genesis, there has already been immense improvement, according to everyone who’s read them haha. I have to say that I agree.

Progress has always been what I strive for. Even if it’s just an inch forwards, I would rather have that than a full step back. It’s not always easy though, especially when there are so many distractions. It’s easy to fall into a cycle of endless scrolling on your phone, and breaking out of it is difficult. It’s about having the discipline to set down the phone. Frankly, I still need to work on that, but I’m definitely trying to distance myself from my phone. Though, it’s just switching from a small screen to a bigger one. Do you have trouble getting out of that loop?

Anyways, this was just a little life update that I wanted to post. Things are getting done, moves are being made, and we’re only going to grow. I’m excited to share these things with you guys, and I hope they’re at least a little bit enjoyable, even if you’re just reading it to kill some time or to distract yourself from something. I’ll try to post some more blogs, but I can’t promise anything haha. Talk to y’all later!