July 1, 2022

A thought that always keeps me up at night is just how small I am compared to this vast universe God has created. Last Thursday I went on my first flight, and I stared out the window for pretty much the entire time. The massive, crowded airport became the same size as a toy block, something that could easily fit into my hand as a child. I had been in that airport merely minutes before, waiting as they called on the passengers. How fascinating.

Throughout the duration of the flight I saw countless sights that I had only before imagined. I saw the formation of clouds from above and rain as it left the sky. There were multiple rainbows which I saw from up in the air, they certainly amazed me. The sky had a haze right where the clouds rested, so the ground became nearly invisible unless you focused on it. And thankfully, I don’t think we hit any birds.

But really, thinking about just how far above the world we were, and how much further 'up' went, it put everything into another perspective. Instead of imagining the world and the universe as I laid wide awake in the dark of night, staring at the ceiling, I could actually see what the world looked like from above. On one hand, this will make for some great writing material, on the other it inspires a question: just how big is God? He created the entire universe and everything within it, and likely so much more outside of it. As the Bible says, He created the Heavens and the Earth and all that dwell within (I’m ever so slightly paraphrasing). Even so, He doesn’t put us on the same plane as ants, he doesn’t regard us as animals of His Creation. No, we are His children. I don’t personally have a child (I have three dogs which count in my book), but to the parents out there, just how great is your adoration when you’re holding your slumbering baby? How much love do you feel when your child says their first words? How much joy does the love of your child bring you? I can only imagine, but that truly puts God’s perfect love into perspective. He forgives us for all of our wrongs (so long as we repent and turn from them), and He guides us through all tides of life.

Truly, I cannot fathom just how much love I receive. He has blessed me with so much in life and there is absolutely nothing I can do to pay Him back. And the beautiful thing is that He doesn’t want anything except for my heart, which I give to Him every single day. No, I don’t understand everything that happens, and there are many things that I don’t want to understand. But what I do know is that through everything, God is always by my side, even when I don’t listen, even when I step off of His path, He is there, guiding me back.

Anyways, the trip was great and I learned a lot of new things; there were also a lot of rainbows which was awesome. I got to see the Hoover Dam and Grand Canyon, which were both pretty neat. We hit both on the same day and drove from Nevada to Texas in under twenty-four hours, which was intense. But we made it safe and sound, and things are moving once again. I have another new project that popped into my head while listening to Loren Allred’s “Never Enough”, so look forward to that. It will be in a completely different genre from what I usually write, but I’m really excited for it. The book probably won’t be out for a while since there’s a lot of things I have to do before putting all of my time and energy into it (cough- including finishing my other four projects), but it will be worth it. That’s all for today, I’m dead tired from such an eventful week. See y’all later!