January 16, 2022

So, I’m not entirely sure of how I should do this. . . I’ve never written a blog before, but it’s something I want to start doing as a way of communication to my readers. As you may or may not know, I published my first book just a little over a year ago. A lot of time has passed since then and I’ve done a lot of growing and maturing. The funny thing is that I feel like my mentality has been getting younger as I’ve been growing older. I’m just beginning to see so many good things in life, when just a few years ago I was the most angsty thirteen year old you could find. I was a “the day has no sun” kind of dark. I’ve lightened up a lot since then haha.

This blog is more just to write about what goes on in my head. Maybe you can relate to my thoughts, or they can stimulate your thinking muscles, whatever works best. It might be a bit random, but that’s okay. I’m known to be pretty unpredictable, and that holds very true when it comes to what runs through my mind.

Yesterday was a pretty big day. It’s something that I had been dreading for the past few months. I celebrated my. . . 19th birthday. . . BLEGH! It still doesn’t feel real. Honestly, I don’t even feel like my birthday, January 15th, is real. I’ve lived that day nineteen times, but every time it just feels more and more like a far-off reality. It’s crazy how time is like a constant cycle, but it’s also like a straight line that never ends. The only thing that ever really stops is life, when it’s reached its end.

I’ve been struggling with this for a little bit; the reality that my life won’t be the same. It’s already changed so much, and I love where I’m at, but it isn’t going to be like this forever. Although it’s sad and it’s kept me up at night more than once, I’m coming to terms with it. I know that where I’m at won’t be my forever, but I’ll enjoy it while I’m here. Those are the kinds of thoughts that have been going through my head lately. I’m at the point where I’m excited for the next chapter, but I’m not ready for this one to close, you know? I’m so blessed and am truly thankful for where God has stationed me, and I’ll keep going wherever He wants me to go. Anyways, now that I’ve gotten that out of my system, I just wanted to let y’all know that I will be starting a blog. There won’t be any real schedule right now, and I highly doubt there will ever be one. The current me would be very surprised if I set up a schedule. However, I will one day post again! Maybe. I can’t just leave this blog as the only one, so I probably will do another one hahaha. See y’all later!